There are many things I love about being an adult. I love being able to pretty much do whatever I want, whenever I want. I love being able to eat whatever I want. I love the feeling of satisfaction that comes from knowing that I did something hard "all by myself." However, I have days in which I wish I could be a kid again. Today is one of those days.
Sometimes I feel scared of things that I have to do and decisions that I have to make. When I was a kid, there wasn't much that truly scared me, because I trusted that my mom and dad would take care of me. They'd make all the decisions and do all the hard things so that I could just enjoy my simple life of going to school, playing, and watching TV. I never had to truly worry about anything. Gosh, I miss those days. Sometimes, like today, I wish that I could have someone just swoop in and take care of me, and I mean just let me sit back while they take care of everything.
I understand that I'm an adult and have to take care of myself, and I don't actually expect anyone to take care of me like my mom and dad used to. That time has passed, but I think I'm allowed to be sad and scared and wish someone would come along and say, "Don't worry about it. Just take a nap and I'll take care of everything.
My husband of course takes care of me, but it's not in the same way, and it shouldn't be. We are equal partners and take care of each other.
Anyway, now I'm just rambling. I've just been feeling scared and frustrated today, and writing about my feelings helps me process them. I'll most likely get over it very soon.
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